“choices, not chances, determine our destiny.”
…i have no idea who said that, but it’s become my motto while working on my weight loss. there are good and not-so-good choices, and it’s all up to me to decide what i want to make of the situation.
i’ve struggled with my weight my entire life. even in kindergarten, i remember going home crying everyday after being chased around the playground by kids who taunted me, calling me “fatty” and asking if i wanted a twinkie. kids are cruel, man. the teasing finally stopped, but i think i preferred the teasing more than the looks i received as an obese adult. it hurts that you can’t eat what you want without feeling the world is wondering why you’re eating that. but i digress; i can’t focus on the crappy and the former anymore. it sucks that i have a lot of weight to lose, but i am the reason my weight went uncontrolled for so long; it is nobody’s fault but mine. i was irresponsible and reckless with my health…but no more and never again.
i joined weight watchers for the 2nd time in my life in june 2007. i’m proud to say that i have lost 50.8 pounds total as of 02-26-08. i’m also proud to announce that i’ve ditched my size 20 pants (that were seriously pushing a size 22) and have moved down to a size 16. i’m very much aware that i’ve still got a long way to go before my “skinny” days come (i’m wanting to lose 100 pounds total), but i’m still very excited to see myself change. weight watchers is an amazing program, and i absolutely recommend it to anyone who wants to lose weight and be healthy. it’s great because it’s a lifestyle change, NOT a diet. you can eat what you want, but the key idea is moderation. if any of you are interested in losing weight or are just having weight woes, feel free to contact me if you want to talk. i won’t shove the importance of weight loss down your throat. just know that i completely understand the pain and the shame that we overweight folks go through. i’ve still got a long way to go until i can be healthy, and i realize that, but everyday is a struggle for me. it’s all a constant fight against my personal demons…food.
well, enough of my babbling. here we go…here are the pictures of me at my all-time largest and now. i weighed 260 lbs in the winter of 2007. never again will i be that big. never again will i let myself do the things to my body that i did before. NEVER AGAIN.
confectionery creations that i not only created but also helped to devour. ugh.
the difference in my face at 243– 17 pounds lighter. i didn’t look up to hide my double chin this time:
a 28.4-pound loss! i’d just hit my 10% target:
-36.6 pounds total on 10-31-07:
and finally at -50.8 on 02-26-08:
…and still pushing forward!